Things that you do and say
Hurt so badly sometimes
It´s not like you´re mean
But you don´t know what
I´ve been going through
And even if you did know, you still wouldn´t´understand...
Cause even I don´t
So I have to tell you
That every word you say can make me cry
Even if you didn´t have a bad intension
I´m very sensitive and so easy to break
So try to not say anything
Anything that reminds me of my past

giving up on me

I can hear it on their voices
I can see it in their eyes
Everyone is giving up on me..

It really took a long time for me to see
That they have lost their hope
Lost their hope on me

And now they are bored out and tired of my sellfish ways
Tired of my mood swings and new scars

well I can´t blame them..

Atleast they can leave whenever they want
But I will always be stuck with myself

Teared apart of fear

The fear that breaths in my heart
Tears me slowly apartI can hardly breath
The panic flows up in my lungs
A word vomit is stuck to my tounge
I´m screaming in to the pillow, pain, pain
Over and again

I´m shaking, starring into the wall as I lay in my bed
I start to hit myself, try to bang the voices out of my head
They keep reminding me of everytime I´ve got hurt
Remind of every lie I´ve heared

I feel so weak and cold
So lonly and forgotten

I wish I was somewhere else
With someone to warm me
Hold me and comfort me


I hate being alone
I alway start to hear these voices
That remindes me of what I want to forget

I wish I had a beutiful voice so I could sing to you

I really wish that I could sing
I wish that I had a beutiful voice
Cause in that case I would sing for you
Sing from my heart
Songs of love, that I wrote just for you
Maybe the you would understand
How much I really love you
You know.. my heart beats only for you
And no one else
I wish I had a voice like an angel
Then I would sing for you
Straight from the heart
Songs about how much I love

I can´t explain how much I love you

I can´t explain all my feelings
How much I actually love you
You are the light in my life
The only one that keeps me alive

It´s so hard for me to explain
I can´t find the right words
No, you are something else
Something speciall

And that scars me so
Cause I´m not like you
No, I´m just like everyone else
There is nothing speciall with me

I´m not worthy you
No, I´m not worth anything
But still you are with me
Still you say that you love me..

Am I dreaming?
This can´t be true
How can someone like you love someone like me?

Obsessed with death

You asked me why I´m so obsessed with death
And I couldn´t find an answear
There is something....just something..
Unexplainable..
I guess I love the pain
Blood sticking to my skin
Beutiful scars that are so vain
It´s like they are filling an empty hole..
Deep inside of me..

And I can´t help but to be courius
What would happend if I died?
Is there a so called brighter side?
Does a heaven exist?
Or maybe I would be able to start over again
But I´m not only obsessed with death
No, it scars me to
What if death is worser than life
Maybe it´s more painful

Who knows?... only the dead does
The wandering souls around us
Should I ask?
Would they answear me?
Or even hear me?

I tried to ask my dead brother
I have always believed since I was a kid, that he is my guardian angel
And I still do
But when I asked him
I started to panic
Someone started to drag me around the hall
Hurted me,laugh at me

Whispering: I can´t stop, I´m to obsessed

Why can´t they kill me?
Why just play with me!?

Where am I?
What´s happening?

I take the knife, life is to scary to me
And so are death
But I guess I´m just to obsessed

How can you love her? correctly me..

How can you love such a freak?
A girl who is just to weak
She is made of insecurities
And makes to many securities
How can you love a gril who refuse to believe you?
She refuse to believe a word you say
Why do you still stay?
She is spyko, there is to much violents in her heart
Why don´t you just leave her and tear her apart?
She want you to love her forever
But she knows that she´s not worth it, has she ever?
No she can´t find a reason why
So she is scared that you´ll lie
Why do you love her?
Why not just leave her?
She´s fucked up, can´t erase the memories
She hear voices, see things that doesn´t exist, the deamon enemies


How can you love her?
Or correctly... how can you love me?