Teared apart of fear

The fear that breaths in my heart
Tears me slowly apartI can hardly breath
The panic flows up in my lungs
A word vomit is stuck to my tounge
I´m screaming in to the pillow, pain, pain
Over and again

I´m shaking, starring into the wall as I lay in my bed
I start to hit myself, try to bang the voices out of my head
They keep reminding me of everytime I´ve got hurt
Remind of every lie I´ve heared

I feel so weak and cold
So lonly and forgotten

I wish I was somewhere else
With someone to warm me
Hold me and comfort me


I hate being alone
I alway start to hear these voices
That remindes me of what I want to forget

How can you love her? correctly me..

How can you love such a freak?
A girl who is just to weak
She is made of insecurities
And makes to many securities
How can you love a gril who refuse to believe you?
She refuse to believe a word you say
Why do you still stay?
She is spyko, there is to much violents in her heart
Why don´t you just leave her and tear her apart?
She want you to love her forever
But she knows that she´s not worth it, has she ever?
No she can´t find a reason why
So she is scared that you´ll lie
Why do you love her?
Why not just leave her?
She´s fucked up, can´t erase the memories
She hear voices, see things that doesn´t exist, the deamon enemies


How can you love her?
Or correctly... how can you love me?