A "perfect" family

I opened a photoalbum

And looked at old family pictures

It reminded me of the wonderful time

When I was always happy

A time that was so perfect

Well we were perfect

Or so I tought..

But this wasn´t a perfect family like I and everyone else believed

No, it was just lies,a fake charade

Full of dark secrets in every corner

Who could have known?

Well I start to believe that I was the only one who didn´t notice

Even now I can´t believe When they say that he smells a lot of alcohol

He´s not sober

It´s probably because I have grown up with his smells and acts

So I can´t tell if he´s drunk or not

When I went to the island I used to love

But now that I really hate

I heared rumors, lies and even the truth from people all around

I now realize that the rumors is true

Mummy was cheeting...

I know now

That she were never happy

Maybe dad deserved it?

Everything was his fault

I have heared so many stories

That I still can´t believe

I don´t know you

I don´t know anyone of you anymore

I don´t know who I schould trust

Who I should believe in..

Maybe I just don´t deserve the truth

I can´t believe and I can´t cry

If you only knew
How you affected my life
By just one lie
You´ve got me addicted to the knife

Just because of you I can´t cry
I take this blade and pierce my skin
The blood is falling down and I don´t know why
Why I´m bleeding insted of crying

I felt guilty when I left you
Cause you nreeded me more than ever
Being with you nerly got me killed
I tought this family would last forever

Just because of you I can´t cry
I take this blade and pierce my skin
The blood is falling down and I don´t know why
Why I´m bleeding insted of crying

I can´t trust anyone anymore
And it´s all because of you
Why did you lie?
Now I can´t believe that anything is true