I love the violence

I have to admit that I love this violence in my head
The screaming voices, heartbreaking noises
Shadows that crawls up in my bed

They came to hurt me
To make me believe
That I don´t have a purpose, a reason to live
They keep screaming:
Kill!Kill!Kill!

But I don´t want to die, no death scares me..
Still...somehow..I love the violence
Biting, scrathing, blood is falling of my skin
I guess loving you is a deadly sin