Sacrificed soul

My soul is gone, bound to guide the dead
Alive by night, dead by dead
Turning screaming noises to voices in my head
Cry for help, scared by the illusions, want to get away
But I sacrificed my soul and are now bound to be a living dead

My body is weak and cold
It´s hard to breath, hard to speak
without my soul I won´t grow old
My finak destination will be on the highest peak
There will I sacrifice my body to the underworld
To the spiritis of eternity

Drown your pain in all my tears
And let me wash away all of your fears
Drown your sorrows in my pain
And let me show you that love ain´t vain
I will hold you forever
Don´t you ever doubt me, never!
I will show yoou that you can trust me
I would do anything for you, be as you want me to be
You have me
My body and my soul
and my heart belongs only to you

You disgusts me

Your face disgusts me
With all your fake smiles and hurtful lies
The look from your eyes that says:
You are so small and weak
So worthless and useless

As if I didn´t know that already

A disscution with you means no own opinion allowed
You are always right and I´m always wrong
Everyonelse is always wrong
You think you always knows the best
And I´m not allowed to get my voice heared

You loud voice scares me
When you screaming at me without a reason
You make me feel so small

I´m so small
I´m so small


So worthless

A "perfect" family

I opened a photoalbum

And looked at old family pictures

It reminded me of the wonderful time

When I was always happy

A time that was so perfect

Well we were perfect

Or so I tought..

But this wasn´t a perfect family like I and everyone else believed

No, it was just lies,a fake charade

Full of dark secrets in every corner

Who could have known?

Well I start to believe that I was the only one who didn´t notice

Even now I can´t believe When they say that he smells a lot of alcohol

He´s not sober

It´s probably because I have grown up with his smells and acts

So I can´t tell if he´s drunk or not

When I went to the island I used to love

But now that I really hate

I heared rumors, lies and even the truth from people all around

I now realize that the rumors is true

Mummy was cheeting...

I know now

That she were never happy

Maybe dad deserved it?

Everything was his fault

I have heared so many stories

That I still can´t believe

I don´t know you

I don´t know anyone of you anymore

I don´t know who I schould trust

Who I should believe in..

Maybe I just don´t deserve the truth

I can´t believe and I can´t cry

If you only knew
How you affected my life
By just one lie
You´ve got me addicted to the knife

Just because of you I can´t cry
I take this blade and pierce my skin
The blood is falling down and I don´t know why
Why I´m bleeding insted of crying

I felt guilty when I left you
Cause you nreeded me more than ever
Being with you nerly got me killed
I tought this family would last forever

Just because of you I can´t cry
I take this blade and pierce my skin
The blood is falling down and I don´t know why
Why I´m bleeding insted of crying

I can´t trust anyone anymore
And it´s all because of you
Why did you lie?
Now I can´t believe that anything is true

Never forgive myself

It´s hard to forgive and forget
But daddy I miss the times we had
I´m sorry for leaving you when you needed me the most
I should have let you drag me down in your sorrows
Let you cry in my knees
I was all you´ve got, your little princess
But I left you...
And I will never forgive myself for that

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